To be Free

I have to admit that this week hasn't been quite as breezy as I had planned. I won't bore you with the laundry details but know that we finally got through the mountains of clothing and while a little peak sits next to me ready for folding, the last summit is still on the washing line. Notice the no mentioning of ironing because wrinkles are totally in right now. Right? Well besides that I've been burying my head in a few things in the name of self improvement. School, writing, growing the blog, some cooking and other general I've-been-meaning-to-do-this-for-a-while kinda stuff. This year has been a follow your heart do what feels right and complete a task kind of year. And boy does it feel good to follow through.

As a mother to this gorgeous baby boy I feel it important to walk my talk so that he learns by example. He's been imitating our actions and echoing our words and if one thing will have you check yourself it's carrying a little mirror on your hip. Check.

All this came to mind while I was caught up in my own world busy with birthday party preparations while holding baby boy. I worked in silence as him and I are often comfortable with our quiet moments. All of a sudden I felt this tiny hand turning my chin to his wide grinned face. He looked at me as if to say "mama look at me". I was overwhelmed by my emotions. Both in love and embarrassed. Embarrassed that I had zoned out long enough for him to reach out. And in love with this growing maricle teaching me more than I could  ever know on my own. So I smiled back and embraced the hugs and kisses while basking in the love that he has for his mama.

I don't want to forget these moments. While I still look forward to all that's to come. I hope that as he grows I too will grow to be more comfortable in my own skin. To be kinder to myself in order to avail the emotional space that allows us to be present and free.

free

adjective

synonyms: unimpeded, unobstructed,unrestricted, unhampered,clear, open, unblocked"the free flow of water"